originally Posted on August 31, 2014
I am so far from perfect, that had I been created on an assembly line instead of in the womb, I would have been marked as reject, does not meet quality standard for sale… Thankfully, I was not created on an assembly line, rather I was knitted together with love and great care in my mother’s womb. Created specifically to serve God’s purpose for my life…even when I am not fully aware of that purpose.
This testimony has never been shared with any person outside of my ‘personal circle’ of friends and family. I held this story close to my heart and protected it from those who would use it to hurt me or hurt those around me. It is PAST time to share this story and hopefully allow others to gain courage to share their own experiences.
At the age of 16, I gave birth to a stillborn daughter at 24 weeks gestation. Doctors attempted to convince me to have an abortion rather than suffer the pain of birthing a child. Why would I allow a doctor to rip my child from my womb when I had chosen months before to cherish her? Because she was not perfect, the doctors were ready to discard her. I had carried her and already loved her. Some 25 years later, I still remember the strong emotions—anger, confusion, loss, betrayal, disgust, shame, fear—that accompanied this time in my life. Tiffany Renae Ganyo was born September 27, 1988. She was born still, silent, yet perfect in every way. Her skin was pink and she was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen. She was my daughter and was with God. We held her burial on October 3, 1988. The week of Tiffany’s loss and burial corresponded to the National Right to Life campaign in 1988.
I relay Tiffany’s story to you to introduce the perfectness that lies within each person, created perfect in the way that fulfills God’s Will and purpose for each life. Many parents with special needs children face daily struggles with the outside world: acceptance of their child’s uniqueness, understanding of the child’s needs and TALENTS, pain of rejection or chastisement or gossip.
Instead of seeing weakness in imperfection, strive to see the strength within imperfection. The cherished smile from a disabled child, which curves their lips and lights their eyes for the world to see God’s light through them. A preemie infant’s tight grip on momma or daddy’s finger. Reaching a child who struggles with trust due to family situations. A handshake that signifies the child’s desire to honor their promises to you because you have shown you are worthy of their trust. Each of the above are extremely powerful visual examples of how our imperfection can be the strongest trait we carry with us.
Psalm 139:13-15 New International Version (NIV) emphasis added
13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Wonderfully made by Matthew West http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UT0DIhYUeMY
Remember, you are “wonderfully made”…