This is my letter to Fibromyalgia. Tomorrow it may change, but at least I was able to let out the negative emotion and pain in a constructive manner!
Our relationship is entirely too one-sided. You are selfish, inconsiderate, and act like a spoiled brat! When I plan fun activities, you crash the party with your pain, stiffness, and fatigue! If I need to use my cognitive abilities, you monopolize them with your tricky fog… And worst of all, just when I think you are becoming my friend, you provide stabbing pain in my back. I am so OVER this relationship!
Now if I could only get you to agree… We might get somewhere.. —feeling annoyed.
When living with chronic illness, everyday can be a battle–sometimes new, sometimes a rerun! We all work to solve our problems in different ways. For me, it is best to turn to God’s Word for advice, comfort, and correction. My stubbornness leads to many “arguments” with God. He is faithful to gently, yet firmly correct my erred thinking!
Today has been a challenging day. There were moments when I just wanted to go to my bed, pull the covers over my head, cry, and shut the world out. I didn’t. Instead, I listened to worship music, I prayed for people God brought into my thoughts, I read some Scripture, and rested. This process is common place in my daily routine even on days when things seem to be going well. I am grateful that my Lord and Savior has provided methods of coping that allow me to honor Him rather than berate Him.
One of my “go to” Scriptures for a rough day is Psalm 91, which speaks about God’s ability to shelter each of us.
Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.” –Psalm 91:1-2
Psalm 91 can be read in it’s entirety at http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+91&version=NIV